maybe..just let it be...

today...was a tiring day...although i hav fun with it...sometime if free should go to beach to relax awhile...maybe this will let mi feel less stress..i don noe how to faace her..ritz now..it is very weird...

OMG!!! i pon sch today... haha...this is the first time....
ok..got to go lala land liao..Zzzz..

is she guilty? or wat??

I just say what i think so...cos she leaving mi out like nobody business...so what for i care her so much...did i over do as a fren? over care her...den i stop myself from goin towards her...now she stared to react...she is weird as always...just like in the past all the the people who i met...all u people wish someone to treat u nice always treat u nice...but when the someone stop treating u nice..u all change.. change damn fast...

i didnt mean her...as she is using mi or wat...yet when she read that nick of mine..she piss off...the reason of pissing off i not sure..cos she don dare to say... i treasure her as fren but do she treasure mi... i guess she still didnt learn for her mistake...she always wan something tat is not hers..to me wat i think is what is urs is urs...what is not no matter wat u wont get it...

after knowing she piss off with mi...i already knew we wont be talkin to each other le...cos to her she trust mi...but to mi she dont even trust mi..as a fren...
go find others ba... i not suit for u... i just don get it..y is she so piss off when she read my nick..even thought i not sayin her..unless...
as people say..she is guilty.. she feel like she treat mi as wat i say..therefore she is angry...

to me..this not the first time le...fate is still playing on mi...and i knew all along..i just a tools...not a human...no matter in relationship or in frenship.. to mi is all the same...

now i starting to hate her...let see how much i can hate...as always the more i hate her..the more i like her...lol...man this is a curse...

i wish i could say to u....i will treasure U more den he do....

How i wish i can just spend all my time with u...just u...but i noe it is impossible...
hiaz...how i wish i can tell u my feeling towards u...how much i care for u...
but i noe it is impossible...

no matter wat i will stand by ur side...just like an angle..protect u..comfort u...
the onli return i wish from u is ur beautiful smile... even u don hav any feelin for mi...

how i wish i can be 24 hour with u...how i wish i have the time to spend with u...
I wish i wish...

there all so many wish just for u...
i guess i will treasure u more den he do...

i don noe y...but seem to be in this way...

i have comfort so many gals in my life...mostly are the gals who i like...yet the same result as always be...we are good fren ritz?
frem...what is fren to u?? fren to mi...is just spendin time doing nothing with u...dat fren...

i heard it once...what u desire u will not get wat u wan... so is this mean...all i desire is a true love....a love dat never betray on me... or did i get it already...
is frenship = true love...??

maybe i didnt treasure it...or maybe i didnt realize it....
fren or love...which will i choose....??

why do i have so many brothers and sister....all i wish is to have a gf...

y do every time i have this problem...when ever i like someone...the most i can get to is close fren or brother and sister..why?
what wrong with mi?? >.<

in my life all the gals i met all just say this to mi...
why should i accept??
all i wish is to have a gf.....

wth!!!!

i feelin damn depress ritz now....

i really don noe what to say...i now onli feel depress...will she like mi??

i wonder if she really concern about mi?? o.o?

hmmmm....don noe why...i guess by now she knew i like her ba...
yet i don have the courage to tell her i like her....all my mind is just thinkin she have alot of guys fren...so many people jio her...now even got one "delivering guy" wor... i just don noe if she really concern about mi???

fate...r u back???

hi fate,
long time no see you le.Suddenly u are back, and it really make me a headache of how to get rid of u. i really don't know what to do in order just to get rid of u.
how i wish u never appear in my eyes, hearts...and also my life....

u just the same old usual...like to play trick on me... honestly speaking i really giv up on myself from the start of she left. U know how much i miss her...yet u taken her away from mi...and thanks for the things u done to me....it really make mi hate myself badly....

I just think too much....

don noe why...i have the feeling like i'm losing something or someone...
I really don't now...i ritz now really puzzle and confuse.
I really hope everything can stop ritz away....sad to say....

i wish i can stop dreaming about u.....

everyday seeing u in class...how i wish the time will stop there...i don noe when i start to feel this way but i just can't stop myself from feeling this way..i can't stop myself of staring at u.

how i wish i can get close to u.....hiaz....i don noe whether i really starting to like u or wat....but i just wish i can stop dreaming about u....

all i need is just ur care and concern....

Hey..i just met this girl not long ago...she not dat pretty...but she is funny..
At first, i didn't have a chance to talk to her...but u know as fate whatever impossible things it will always happen...

I don't wish i can be with her or what...but i just wan to stay by her side...I don't noe wat a love...but i noe i care for her...
all i need is just ur care and concern....

let the things rest....

....i hope they not dat hate mi after all...even they do...is not my business anymore..
i already done wat i can...at least let the things rest...small problem is over...
i already no longer trust her...it is a question dat will we be fren....cos i cant even
trust her...maybe this is fate ba...i just have to accept it...

hope dat i can forget her..completely...

wat i learn so far...??

...........today...ritz now i like to talk about a gal i noe in RP...
how can i start....while..i tat i like this gal wor...so i started to jio her...
but i found out she lie to mi..ok hmmm...she lie to mi not once but all the time..
after many things have happen...i thinking is she tryin to get somehting from mi..
wat do i have??i hav no money...not handsome...just a jerk..but she like tryin to
tell mi she like mi...but show mi she don't.. quite hard ba...but at least i noe
her true self...too bad...she choose them..not mi...lucky...

i don really like her so much...just dat she teach mi something i didnt feel b4..
lucky i really don hav so much feel on her...but still i hav a regret of being a
fren of her...wat is fren called if there is no trust...wat is a couple called if
there is no love...

i hate myself...i hate the part of hateing u..i hate to noe u..like u..
y u create this rubbish on mi...to u..M I dat useless..M I dat worst...i cant
compare to a human...so this is how u treat mi...

I wanted to ask u..can u..always ask urself...did u really hurt
someone...did u really hav regret....?
after knowing wat is really u...hurt mi the most..is jusst mi..not u...
all the like of u...now slowly turn to hate...soon i will forget u..cos i cant
believe i like a person with no trust....cant trust...since God bring this fate
to mi...i shall accept...

I M BACK...to bloggin ^_^

weeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so fast 2010 liao wor.....
I so lucky and proud to say i in RP....hahha i noe la..maybe is not the best poly..
but at least i in a poly....hahah...
ritz..now already pass one month in poly liao wor...
i still not use to it....fren and everything...starting of the week is still ok..
when come the week after things start to change...


many many things happen...suddenly i like this gal...den suddenly i dislike her so
badly....not dat just reject by her..but she make mi puke...in all kind of reason..
hiaz..sad to say..u cant have a gal u like in the same class wor....


ok..when time pass fast enough in Rp it is really fast wor...
i starting to get some fren who i can trust...but i was hurt by one person...
she lie to mi...too bad...i have to learn my lesson dat no gals can be trust de..
not anymore...

now i will just play...and i wont be seaious liao...to anyone...