I damn angry lor....

hiaz..as usual i go to sch with a emo feelin...
still got wat thing bothering mi...
i really wan to thanks my class mate..as in ite de
thanks to them my feelin back abit le...


but still i was very angry lor...
first is the girl who i like..didn't have any interest in mi..
can't blame maybe i really fate to no one like ba..also cant force her
to like mi >.<


second i got bluff by my best bro..i noe him for 5 years..N this is how he treat
mi...first tell mi he forgot to bring towel ask mi go home take..N i did
den he say he is in sch..will be late to go gym..so meanin will still go de la
i was like a idiot waitin in the gym just to wait for him...den i call him many
times den he say he at the girl place...which is 5 station away from khadit
den he tell mi he is in train liao..ok..so i wait...
untill awhile..i ask him where he is liao..he say he is buyin water for mi..he say
he reachin le...
ok..i wait again..my feelin really very angry lor( i don wan to scold the F word)


third thing..on my time waitin for the best fren i ever have( really best on cant
buy de hor)
there r two couple..sitin around mi...i was tryin my break dance skill
n they came to disturb mi how?? i tell u in a short well
first couple talkin to each other den quarrel den in the end hugg together..den
kiss...hiaz..(Y is not mi..n the girl i like..)
den the second couple also same quarrel quarrel..
sian lor...Y onli i can C all the bad thing de >.<
in the end they also hugg together...hiaz...
makin mi more jealous lor..i still emo ok...?



so so so damn angry....hiaz..hopin anyone can change my life...

will u giv mi a chance????

now dat i noe...u hav no interest in mi at all...
not a single feelin....i admit it is all one side feelin
hiaz...


wat can i do??? wat should i do..i so confuse...
my feelin now is really really lost....
someone plz help mi..anyone?

i can remember once..she say to mi waitin is not 100% dat she will fall on mi
but if her heart there is another guy in it..wat m i suppose to do???
there wasn't any space for mi...

now dat i noe...she wasn't look at mi..she doesn't even wan to go out with mi...
maybe is time to let it go...but i really don wish to..don wan too...
i don even dare to talk to her...don even dare to face her..\
hiaz..M i dat bad..?

i just not attractive like others ba...
even if i continue will she giv mi a chance????

do u believe in fate???

i really like her alot....but maybe i noe her not enough..
maybe i really don noe wat she wan....
maybe like my god bro say i not her cup of tea...

i don wish to giv up...n i don wan to...

i really don noe Y...Y my fate always has to be in this way
maybe i should not be in this world...

if my fate say dat i cant be with her...
i wish can i can bear the pain to let her go..
but for now i say it is hard for mi....

i cry today!!!!!

today is a day i really noe about myself....
after all i not dat good enough...M i dat bad...

afterall i still a useless guy...wat is fate to mi??
no one will even look on mi...wat for care about mi
just leave mi alone...don bother to talk to mi

do anyone care how i feel...or should i say no one will care how i feel
i just a loner...a guy dat no body will care about
i wish evrything can start all over again
i wish i can change my fate...somehow...

my tears fall today...i really damn damn upset lor..with myself
i so so damn useless...for some reason i think i should even come to this world
i feel so pain ritz..now...Someone plz kill mi...


i hate myslf
i hate myself
i hate myself
i hate myself

i can C she is unhappy....

today i wake up as usual....
i eat my breadfirst...n lunch together...
den bath n get change den go out liao!!!!


i at first go out with my pal...towards to buy my textbook..but i cant find the stupid book...hiaz...
nvm after walkin around the shoppin mall..we go get a drink..den we plan to go to
city link..to C some dancer
too bad this is not our day..there no one there dancin
hiaz...


so nvm..let move on to the plan...N dat is go find my girl..i mean the girl i like
when i reach her workin place...i hav a strange feelin
i talk to the girl i like for awhile ba...den she is so busy doing her job..
but but..her face look so unhappy



i didn't ask y...cos i noe she wont say de.....
i try to make her smile....hiaz..i fail...
in the end i left but i got say good bye to her la...


den my pal lovin fren came...
wat do i mean..er..pal like the girl la
i feel like i a BIG bIg BIG LIGHT BLUB
hiaz..no choice..life is unfair...





den we walk around..i abit shy at first..but i everytime got sobon by my pal n his girl...y?
leave mi n the girl's sister...hiaz...
den my love one sms mi dat she is havin her break..i wan to rush to her lor..
hiaz,,i upset one thing lor...
i go out with my pal n his girl 'fren'...den she ask mi to enjoy...
hiaz.. she still don noe how i feel wat i m thinkin...
i like her lor..alot alot lor..Y cant she just understand dat..

so glad dat she is back ^^

after for so so long...(onli three days onli)
never talk to her really kill mi big time u noe?? =.=
hiaz...when she got free time sia.. >.<



so so boring..n she is workin lor...
but i still love to go out with her sia... HAHA!!!!



don noe wat to write liao...



but still...



so glad she is back safely ^^

miss her miss her really miss her!!!!!!

hiaz..at last..one day is gone ^^
she back tml!!!haha!!!!
but don noe when....hiaz...
i really miss her lor!!!never talk to her..don noe is she happy anot>.<
hiaz...


haha...nvm i don care..i so happy i don noe Y
maybe i crazy liao...

arg!!!!!



miss her miss her hiaz...I ReALLY MISS HER!!!!!!!!

i miss her...2 more days...hiaz

everyone need time..to relax..no matter wat u doin..
many people sure hav some stress..in work or in study..
so a way to relax urself is to go on a holiday trip ^^


dat wat the girl who i like does...she leave singapore this mornin >.<
to gentin..(wish i can go with her sia)
i can remember she onli bring one small blue bag..very cute lor


yesterday i go out with her..n some old fren ba..
at first wan to go watch a movie..but no show to watch
den we went to kbox...but too XXXX liao
in the end we go plzy pool..


i at first say to them i master liao...but in the end i lose liao siao lor >.<
hiaz...
but nvm..at least i get the chance to get closer to her ^^
haha


everytime we met i really hate one thing dat is to leave n go home..
hiaz..now she is not in singapore i really miss her sia...
hiaz..2 more days...

i really fall in love with her...

after yesterday..i really cant live without her
her smile is back to normal..
to mi she is a very very nice girl..
i don noe Y but i noe she the one...the only one


we hav alot of fun...haha..thank to my ex boss ^^
i really enjoy every single moment i spent with her
it is like a dream...
i think i need to get closer to her..


oh god..
i really fall in love on her

will u remember..mi??

althought we have not noe each other very well
but i can say i cant forget the time we spent together
i really hope dat u can be with mi for the rest of my life...
to u we r just fren..but i onli hope dat we can get to something dat is more
closer den fren...


i really wish i can stand by ur side..caring n huggin u..
i really wish the day can come..


will u remember mi??

do i stand a chance???

i not handsome...i nt dat rich..i not so good in anything...
do i stand a chance???
i really scare dat i goin to lose u...
i really scare ....really very scare

promise...do u believe promise is mean to break??

IT is so easy to giv a promise...but it is too hard to keep it...
promise is easy to make..n it is easier to break...
do u agree??how many times did u break ur promise dat u make to others??
N if u cant keep ur promise den Y in the first place giv a promise??


i giv alot of promise...to the one i love..but i found out dat each i giv
is so hard to keep it..n in the end i break it..is this Y people hate mi..
i'm tryin very hard..really very hard..hoping dat i keep my promise..
i end up in a mess...hiaz...


this time i like this girl...luckily i did not promise alot of thing yet...
but i will do my best to keep it..
to earn her trust n respect..(just like my god bro(jeffery)]
i really lookin forward everyday to C her..but no choice i hav sch to attend..
n she hav to work..hiaz...
hopeing she can leave her job in carefour real soon...this is the worst job i ever
met...


i really wish i can be with her..but is still hav a feelin of i'm losing her
i really don noe wat to do...but i promise i will wait for her..
i will do my best no matter wat..
plz..plz..let mi noe if u need mi..i be there..for sure..
this time i wont break my promise..

how i feel now do she noe...??it doesn't matter as long she noe i be there for her!!!

hmmm...the feeling inside mi..is growing n growin..
but the feeling about her is losing so is this mean dat i goin to
lose her???

i did hav a great time with her..n i wish i can hav it everytime
i noe i greedy..but in this world who do not wan to be with his/her
love ones!!!
if only i can get closer to her..if only i can gain her trust..
but i don wan "if" i wan it to happen
but will it happen??


i didn't make it but at least i try...
m i wrong..??
loving a person..is it wrong??
care for the person..is it wrong??
in the past i hear all kind of things..from every girl i met..or should is say
have a crush on....they will say.."can we be fren..""if u care for mi i will feel
bad" this r nothing but excuses...


every girl say man r the bullies...but wat about we guys think??
R every girl a bullies??wat we guys r doing..wat we r tryin..??
to earn the girl respect n trust..
wat if we fail...??


should we say" girls R the one who is bullies "??



but don forget there is love...everywhere around mi
But...BUT..
it is not happen on mi...


but i wish she noe dat no matter wat i be there for her...

i really hope she is happy

yesterday was a boring day for mi at first...
i wake up in the mornin staring at my house wall..
nothing to do..
N it is such a hot day >.<


about 4pm..i really cant stand the bored at home so i wan to go out for a walk...
and somemore i hav a werid feeling inside mi towards her...i felt dat she is so so upset..but i don noe Y...

so i wan to ask her go out but i don think she hav the mood..instead i ask my best bro to go out..who noe my best bro ask mi together go find her..i say i love to..but scare dat she might not like it >.<..
in the end we reach her workin place..but we didn't C her..
so i go ask around..haha..my luck came back..when i lookin for her
she was just infront of mi sia..of cos i rush to her la ^^
but i can C her face was not so happy sia..she is like another person lor..
her face is as black as the dark cloud lor...
so i ask her wat happen..N she didn't wan to tell mi at all..(sad i so useless sia)
i really wan to noe la..but in the end she onli say workin stress lor...
in my mind at dat time i onli wan to make her happy.. but i do not noe how sia
after my bro buy his food(i mean his dog food)we went walkin to watch a movie..
but still she is not happy lor...

hiaz..i really don noe wat to do..i really wan to help her..but but..(i still so useless sia)
when we reach the cinema..it about 9 le..
n we haven decide wat to watch sia..in the end we watch IRON MAN..
but still she is not happy at dat time...>.<
when i ask her again wat happen she onli say nothing lor..i'm ok..
how can believe her words???she look so so depress sia..
lucky during the show her mood change abit...
but i found one cute thing haha..^^
she was coverin her both ear..she look scare..i don noe Y..
but she look cute lor..i was watchin her rather den the movie...(hope she don noe la)
i really like the movie IRON MAN is a nic show..i hope got IRON MAN 2 sia haha!!!!

ya..everyone noe dat havin a good time is always end so quicky..especially when i spent time with her >.<
nvm..we spent some time walkin to mrt station..don noe Y she so werid don let mi to walk with her to her busstop..she onli wan to C us in the station den she ready to go (maybe she scare dat i follow her home ^^)

haha..great time i guess..but still i really hope she is happy..
hope she can smile..every single day..
i hope i can get closer to her..
hiaz...

how can i get close to her??

hiaz...how i wish i can be with her..
i also wish to noe how she feel about mi
do she like mi??
hiaz..
i just hopeless>.<
how can i get close to her..someone plz tell mi
if someone can...

Wat should i do???

TOday is rush rush day!!!!

early in the mornin wake up although not for sch but NEED to Get my pay!!!
HAHA!!! i got My pay aat last!!! the stupid Carefour count mi wrong money want to eat my money sia.. one hundred plus u noe >.but luckily can manage to claim back


mornin go to carefour den go sch den go back to carefour den go back to sch sia
rush here rush there i almost broke lor...lucky i still got my pay ^^

today i go to my sch my sch dance cca...abit sad la but i still like it..

hiaz..i hav a feelin i goin to lose her...wat should i do >.<

so Boring..

HiAz..same day as usual..although today is holiday..
at first i goin to meet someone(who is important to mi)
but in the end i did'nt meet the person >.<

haha.. is ok(i tell myself)
so i went to my god bro house to slack
chattin playin n dancin
SO boring..
but i think tml will be a rush day for mi
I goin to get My PAY!!!! HAHA!!!^^