wow...i didnt hav this feelin b4..mine chirstmas wish

today is a normal day to mi.....i guess..but it turn into a special day
don noe y...maybe is one of my wish ba...
i really change...into a person i really don noe...not i use to be ba
maybe sometime i really jealous about others...wat they hav is wat i wan
but i couldnt hav it...i onli can say is not the ritz time...
but when den when is the ritz time i ask myself again...

maybe is for mi to remember n not to say it out ba...even i also hav
secret wor.....lol...i really don noe how long i can last remain as
like this...or should i say how strong i can be...
do anyone really understand about mi?? really anyone??
i guess no ba...cos i don even noe myself...not the way i use to
wat i feel i will say..not now ba..not anymore..

i onli wish someone in the world out there...someone is willin to hear
mi out...willin to spend the time with mi...
but all i noe is nobody but myself...
i not tryin to say i lonely but it is true...i was lonely..
everytime come to the days when i need some1 to be with mi...
but this time is her again...
i noe her quite well ba..i guess..everytime when i need someone she
will giv mi the hope...n this is how i spend my day...although we r fren
but i really like to thank her wor..to hav the time with mi

she is a good fren...to mi..of cos..n i hav a feelin for her...
but i think i will keep this feelin in my heart ba...i wont say it out
even to her i guess? maybe i just not suit her ba...
i learn alot of things this year...n i guess i'm growing
older..n this is the feelin i never hav b4...

if someone up in the sky can really hear mi....
thank you the one who giv mi life...the chance to breath in this world
understand things in this world...knowin wat ritz n wrong..
thank you..for those people who noe mi..it is my pleasure to noe u all
if there really a santa claus( i don even noe i spell it ritz sia =.=)
i wish the present dat he brings is happiness not to mi alone but those
who around mi...even if i suffer i onli wish people around mi will be
happy...i don mind to be the onli one who is left out..but i onli
hate it when u forget about my frens...sadness n lonelyness let it
all be with mi just leave my fren alone...with so called the happiness
lonely n sadness i already use to it so there is no fear in it...
N this is my onli christmas wish...