wat M i thinkin now??

Felt like today's time pass so slow...

2012-01-03T23:02:00.000-08:00

It is a normal day, where everything is normal....nothing special
But I think that the time pass so slow...and boring....
I wonder is we doing our things damn fast or is the day is so long sia....

My plan if the day is that I study in class until 6pm hopefully i have the mood...
then go home rest and change to running clothes and go run....
I think I can train abit as my ache have stop ba....

that all of the day......

My feeling

2012-01-03T05:57:00.000-08:00

after she leave.....My heart is so dead....I can't feel my heart beat....
yet I have to smile everyday facing everyone and everyone.....

what the point of knowing her....then.....forget about her....

I really glad that I know her....but...do she glad to know mi?

does she love mi in the first place?

i so happy that there is a new couple beside mi....*CheerS* man!!! I wish u can last long with her...

And I hope she is way better than anyone I know......!!!!

Thanks to people around mi.......I can move on....thanks to her....I see the truth about gals.....

New Life, new friends....

2011-12-07T18:34:00.000-08:00

Now currently in Year 2 sem 2, I happy with my class currently compare to Year 2 sem one. At least I felt easy and abit distress ba.....

To me right now....I like in a New life where by I don look at the past think about what I had before but now looking forward each day happening. everyday there will be joke laughter mainly in my new class.

I met some new friends, in new class all are quite friendly and fun i guess.....

Hope this go on.......
But ...
but..

I still don wan to forget what I use to have what I use to share.....my pain and my love....
hope u go on well in ur life.....

how i being?

2011-11-03T19:17:00.000-07:00

without u by my side...yes...i felt quite lonely....i not use to it at all.....but when time goes by...slowly i get use to it le....thanks to my friends helping me...now i get back on my feet....
what did i done to have u treat mi in this way....ur coldness....ur eyes.....ur voice....

thanks....anyway....i get use to it le.....

I M SINGLE!!!!!!

2011-07-16T08:21:00.000-07:00

after 6 month of in love...with this gal vivian lee...on this day this time...she is leaving mi...

I love her alot...care her alot...but...in the end, we were on our own.

I did my best and really enjoy all the greeat time i have with her...

my tears came...and dry very fast...i wont hate her...

maybe i just not rich...not dat handsome...maybe i just not that nice for her...n she left.....all i can say to her....thank you very much...I LOVE U....

my feeling for now...

2011-06-15T19:44:00.000-07:00

I understand why my gf say i childish and don noe how to think...and i started to realise it too but when i realise it i think i like grow up and felt different den b4...thanks to my work i realise that people around mi althought we are about same age but their reaction is like small kid..and some even thinking of fucking gals all days and nitz....
I just felt that i very different from this people...can say ba i well educated compare to them...so i trying not to be angry...thanks to my classmate they all are also telling mi don think so much as they are just 'kids' so heck care them ba..
I love my gf and also i respect her too..if i just wan to play her body.....if the first case i should not start a relationship with her...and just play with her...but i not!!! i love my gf so much and i respect her too...don classify mi n u people the same...FUCK!!!

I hate it...no one understand mi...what i need??

2011-05-31T09:17:00.000-07:00

I starting to get use no one really understand me at all...people just think and say what they see.

everyone is against me suddenly and i have nothing to say...I wan something is not to show off or to play i just wan to save time and use it as a transport.yet people say i m childish. I really trying very hard to cope my studies and at the same time working. yet people say study la don waste time on that thing...if only this people are me then they noe how i feel if not why bother....i really fuck care of them...all of them...soon i just be a robot...anyway no one cares..mi or how i feel...just treat mi as a kid...i m tired but i cant rest...no income...don say about buying my dream bike....i wonder why did i take the first step of getting a bike licences and not car...?? it is becos i can afford a bike and it really help mi save the time...reach home early n rest...i really don noe wat the problem...hiaz...i wont giv up on my bike de....just that wait ba...

DO I REALLY HAVE THE CHOICE???

2011-05-19T19:38:00.000-07:00

I believe if I don't work then, i will not have money to pay my stuff. I know how important to study but if a person who can't afford to come to sch how does he/she have the money to study...?? My parents always ask mi not to work as i am still currently in studies but but...if i don't work who going to give mi allowances who give mi my transport and my bill for my hp.

some people even say work less la...study important i reply to them den can u support mi??
what are u all thinking???!!! FUCK U if u really don understand mi n my position!!!
U ALL Doesn't know unless u have to support urself So FUCKING WAKE UP UR MIND LA!!!!

feelin stress up suddenly...

2011-05-05T19:25:00.000-07:00

today...suddenly i feel like i falling in to a deep hole...there nothing else...no sound...no light...i just keep falling...

I have been working lately...trying to save up to do things that i wan...i have to work have to study and have to accompany my gf...Time is the thing i need...money is the second....

i didnt even see my mum for a week, didnt see my gf for a week.....and all i can blame is mi...
trying to do my best... wonder how long i can last...

I M SO HAPPY TO HAV U

2011-04-14T01:38:00.000-07:00

AFTER so many years, i been cursing myself and sick of myself that i m single. >.<

AT LAST I HAVE A GF!!! yahoo ^_^

She is pretty , cute , adorable, beautiful and lots more for mi to find out =P

I hav so long never update this blog le...so now just wan to write about 'her'

Her name is vivian lee ^ ^

age: 17

currently studying in tampaniese ite. Now i have being with her for 3 months and to me there is long way to go >.< i love her so much as she willing to understand mi more than anyone will do. To me as she grows i am growing too. although she may be the one controlling mi the whole time but i just wan to be with her or should i say i just love her too much. XD

i always hav a negative side of thinking like we can't last or what...but to mi what most important is she can be happy when i m around ^ ^ giving what i can thats all even i suffer more than i give...ritz now i say i willing >.<

i really not sure of it....

2011-01-03T16:56:00.000-08:00

i really enjoy it...enjoy the time that spend with this 'person'..
don noe why the time i spend with this 'person' is like very fast..from day...soon will be night... and i hate it..i hate to say goodbye...but if don...den there wont be tml...

i don wan to think of it sia...but suddenly someone plant this stupid seed in my head sia...T.T den even worst this seed is growing sia...i really don noe how or wat to do to stop this stupid seed from growing...

maybe..just let it be...

2010-12-16T08:02:00.000-08:00

today...was a tiring day...although i hav fun with it...sometime if free should go to beach to relax awhile...maybe this will let mi feel less stress..i don noe how to faace her..ritz now..it is very weird...

OMG!!! i pon sch today... haha...this is the first time....
ok..got to go lala land liao..Zzzz..

is she guilty? or wat??

2010-12-15T18:39:00.001-08:00

I just say what i think so...cos she leaving mi out like nobody business...so what for i care her so much...did i over do as a fren? over care her...den i stop myself from goin towards her...now she stared to react...she is weird as always...just like in the past all the the people who i met...all u people wish someone to treat u nice always treat u nice...but when the someone stop treating u nice..u all change.. change damn fast...

i didnt mean her...as she is using mi or wat...yet when she read that nick of mine..she piss off...the reason of pissing off i not sure..cos she don dare to say... i treasure her as fren but do she treasure mi... i guess she still didnt learn for her mistake...she always wan something tat is not hers..to me wat i think is what is urs is urs...what is not no matter wat u wont get it...

after knowing she piss off with mi...i already knew we wont be talkin to each other le...cos to her she trust mi...but to mi she dont even trust mi..as a fren...
go find others ba... i not suit for u... i just don get it..y is she so piss off when she read my nick..even thought i not sayin her..unless...
as people say..she is guilty.. she feel like she treat mi as wat i say..therefore she is angry...

to me..this not the first time le...fate is still playing on mi...and i knew all along..i just a tools...not a human...no matter in relationship or in frenship.. to mi is all the same...

now i starting to hate her...let see how much i can hate...as always the more i hate her..the more i like her...lol...man this is a curse...

i wish i could say to u....i will treasure U more den he do....

2010-12-09T07:58:00.001-08:00

How i wish i can just spend all my time with u...just u...but i noe it is impossible...
hiaz...how i wish i can tell u my feeling towards u...how much i care for u...
but i noe it is impossible...

no matter wat i will stand by ur side...just like an angle..protect u..comfort u...
the onli return i wish from u is ur beautiful smile... even u don hav any feelin for mi...

how i wish i can be 24 hour with u...how i wish i have the time to spend with u...
I wish i wish...

there all so many wish just for u...
i guess i will treasure u more den he do...

i don noe y...but seem to be in this way...

2010-12-08T08:57:00.000-08:00

i have comfort so many gals in my life...mostly are the gals who i like...yet the same result as always be...we are good fren ritz?
frem...what is fren to u?? fren to mi...is just spendin time doing nothing with u...dat fren...

i heard it once...what u desire u will not get wat u wan... so is this mean...all i desire is a true love....a love dat never betray on me... or did i get it already...
is frenship = true love...??

maybe i didnt treasure it...or maybe i didnt realize it....
fren or love...which will i choose....??

why do i have so many brothers and sister....all i wish is to have a gf...

2010-12-05T08:03:00.000-08:00

y do every time i have this problem...when ever i like someone...the most i can get to is close fren or brother and sister..why?
what wrong with mi?? >.<

in my life all the gals i met all just say this to mi...
why should i accept??
all i wish is to have a gf.....

wth!!!!

i feelin damn depress ritz now....

2010-12-01T23:44:00.000-08:00

i really don noe what to say...i now onli feel depress...will she like mi??

i wonder if she really concern about mi?? o.o?

2010-11-26T22:12:00.000-08:00

hmmmm....don noe why...i guess by now she knew i like her ba...
yet i don have the courage to tell her i like her....all my mind is just thinkin she have alot of guys fren...so many people jio her...now even got one "delivering guy" wor... i just don noe if she really concern about mi???

fate...r u back???

2010-11-24T08:05:00.000-08:00

hi fate,
long time no see you le.Suddenly u are back, and it really make me a headache of how to get rid of u. i really don't know what to do in order just to get rid of u.
how i wish u never appear in my eyes, hearts...and also my life....

u just the same old usual...like to play trick on me... honestly speaking i really giv up on myself from the start of she left. U know how much i miss her...yet u taken her away from mi...and thanks for the things u done to me....it really make mi hate myself badly....

I just think too much....

2010-11-23T22:07:00.000-08:00

don noe why...i have the feeling like i'm losing something or someone...
I really don't now...i ritz now really puzzle and confuse.
I really hope everything can stop ritz away....sad to say....

i wish i can stop dreaming about u.....

2010-11-15T07:06:00.000-08:00

everyday seeing u in class...how i wish the time will stop there...i don noe when i start to feel this way but i just can't stop myself from feeling this way..i can't stop myself of staring at u.

how i wish i can get close to u.....hiaz....i don noe whether i really starting to like u or wat....but i just wish i can stop dreaming about u....

all i need is just ur care and concern....

2010-11-13T19:37:00.000-08:00

Hey..i just met this girl not long ago...she not dat pretty...but she is funny..
At first, i didn't have a chance to talk to her...but u know as fate whatever impossible things it will always happen...

I don't wish i can be with her or what...but i just wan to stay by her side...I don't noe wat a love...but i noe i care for her...
all i need is just ur care and concern....

let the things rest....

2010-05-23T18:11:00.000-07:00

....i hope they not dat hate mi after all...even they do...is not my business anymore..
i already done wat i can...at least let the things rest...small problem is over...
i already no longer trust her...it is a question dat will we be fren....cos i cant even
trust her...maybe this is fate ba...i just have to accept it...

hope dat i can forget her..completely...

wat i learn so far...??

2010-05-23T08:52:00.000-07:00

...........today...ritz now i like to talk about a gal i noe in RP...
how can i start....while..i tat i like this gal wor...so i started to jio her...
but i found out she lie to mi..ok hmmm...she lie to mi not once but all the time..
after many things have happen...i thinking is she tryin to get somehting from mi..
wat do i have??i hav no money...not handsome...just a jerk..but she like tryin to
tell mi she like mi...but show mi she don't.. quite hard ba...but at least i noe
her true self...too bad...she choose them..not mi...lucky...

i don really like her so much...just dat she teach mi something i didnt feel b4..
lucky i really don hav so much feel on her...but still i hav a regret of being a
fren of her...wat is fren called if there is no trust...wat is a couple called if
there is no love...

i hate myself...i hate the part of hateing u..i hate to noe u..like u..
y u create this rubbish on mi...to u..M I dat useless..M I dat worst...i cant
compare to a human...so this is how u treat mi...

I wanted to ask u..can u..always ask urself...did u really hurt
someone...did u really hav regret....?
after knowing wat is really u...hurt mi the most..is jusst mi..not u...
all the like of u...now slowly turn to hate...soon i will forget u..cos i cant
believe i like a person with no trust....cant trust...since God bring this fate
to mi...i shall accept...

I M BACK...to bloggin ^_^

2010-05-19T17:48:00.000-07:00

weeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so fast 2010 liao wor.....
I so lucky and proud to say i in RP....hahha i noe la..maybe is not the best poly..
but at least i in a poly....hahah...
ritz..now already pass one month in poly liao wor...
i still not use to it....fren and everything...starting of the week is still ok..
when come the week after things start to change...

many many things happen...suddenly i like this gal...den suddenly i dislike her so
badly....not dat just reject by her..but she make mi puke...in all kind of reason..
hiaz..sad to say..u cant have a gal u like in the same class wor....

ok..when time pass fast enough in Rp it is really fast wor...
i starting to get some fren who i can trust...but i was hurt by one person...
she lie to mi...too bad...i have to learn my lesson dat no gals can be trust de..
not anymore...

now i will just play...and i wont be seaious liao...to anyone...

wat if i say i love u....

2009-05-07T10:34:00.000-07:00

when time flew by.....everything will change...even my feelin towards u..
i really don noe wat to do...but onli to stay close to u...
i wish time will stop just for us...i really glad i noe u...
just dat it is hard for us to be together...
don ask mi i really don noe y....maybe i'm scare ba...
scare dat i will lose u...
scare dat we wont talk anymore...

wat if i say i love u...will be with mi...?? will u love mi???
i don noe wor...just hope u can be happy even without mi...
just let mi be by ur side...i happy enough...

i hate it...is there anyone will treasure ur love one?!

2009-04-26T10:39:00.001-07:00

i came to this story......starting i C the cover page..it is so nice..
but when i startin to read it...the story is not dat nice...
the story tell mi about this guy wont understand how to treasure this girl
i continue readin the story...n found out this gal...really love this guy..
yet..the guy was just don noe how to treasure such a wonderful gal....

i really hate it sia...don he noe...there are some people wish for a gal
to be with them...care them love them trust them...but in the end they did
not gett it....

i m the one of them....i wish for a gal dat is nice n can stay with mi
by my side when i need her...hiaz..but story is still a story...
i don noe wat the endin of it...i now just wish it is a happy endin...=.=

once in love.....u never noe...if u never try..how u noe?

2009-01-19T07:51:00.000-08:00

have u fell in love b4? or have u just like someone without even lettin him
or her noe? den i think now is the time wor...who noe maybe he or her is
waitin for u?

how i wish wor...i can fell in love...hiaz...so hard to say..
maybe now is not my time ba..maybe i not ready...
somehow i really miss her..i didnt tell her i like her..
but noww i think everything is over..we doesnt talk dat much
our gaps grow wider...somehow there no chance to stay close

i really don noe y...god wan to play trick on mi....i really wish
wish i can just once...i really don noe...but to wait...
hiaz...maybe just mi ba...

My NEW year wish wor!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-10T23:28:00.001-08:00

haha...hope this year can be a better year sia........
noe even more fren...learn more things...if can find a job part time de
buy my things...maybe this ba...oh one more thing wish my mama n dad dad
healthy sia......dat all ba...er..still got ya..wish all my fren a happy
new year wor!!!!!!!! dat all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!bbbb

at last another day hav pass...hiaz...if i find u will u accompany mi??

2008-12-26T06:59:00.000-08:00

early in the morning i wake up...at wan to go sentosa de
but cancel wor...so go play bball lor..is not dat i like to play
bball la..is boring lor nothin to do so play bball to waste time..
from 12 ba..play untill 2 plus den go back to meet some wu shu freak
hiaz..sian lor wu shu freak sia..all wu shu...i wonder how i train sia
tahan for 5 year...

is not dat i don like la..is sian lor..like u eat chicken rice
everyday..den u wont sian meh...
hiaz..let don talk about wu shu cos it really giv mi a headach...

now tryin to find someone to talk sia...i don noe y lor....
just wan to talk..wan to share with someone wor...
if i find u will u accompany mi?

wow...i didnt hav this feelin b4..mine chirstmas wish

2008-12-19T09:00:00.000-08:00

today is a normal day to mi.....i guess..but it turn into a special day
don noe y...maybe is one of my wish ba...
i really change...into a person i really don noe...not i use to be ba
maybe sometime i really jealous about others...wat they hav is wat i wan
but i couldnt hav it...i onli can say is not the ritz time...
but when den when is the ritz time i ask myself again...

maybe is for mi to remember n not to say it out ba...even i also hav
secret wor.....lol...i really don noe how long i can last remain as
like this...or should i say how strong i can be...
do anyone really understand about mi?? really anyone??
i guess no ba...cos i don even noe myself...not the way i use to
wat i feel i will say..not now ba..not anymore..

i onli wish someone in the world out there...someone is willin to hear
mi out...willin to spend the time with mi...
but all i noe is nobody but myself...
i not tryin to say i lonely but it is true...i was lonely..
everytime come to the days when i need some1 to be with mi...
but this time is her again...
i noe her quite well ba..i guess..everytime when i need someone she
will giv mi the hope...n this is how i spend my day...although we r fren
but i really like to thank her wor..to hav the time with mi

she is a good fren...to mi..of cos..n i hav a feelin for her...
but i think i will keep this feelin in my heart ba...i wont say it out
even to her i guess? maybe i just not suit her ba...
i learn alot of things this year...n i guess i'm growing
older..n this is the feelin i never hav b4...

if someone up in the sky can really hear mi....
thank you the one who giv mi life...the chance to breath in this world
understand things in this world...knowin wat ritz n wrong..
thank you..for those people who noe mi..it is my pleasure to noe u all
if there really a santa claus( i don even noe i spell it ritz sia =.=)
i wish the present dat he brings is happiness not to mi alone but those
who around mi...even if i suffer i onli wish people around mi will be
happy...i don mind to be the onli one who is left out..but i onli
hate it when u forget about my frens...sadness n lonelyness let it
all be with mi just leave my fren alone...with so called the happiness
lonely n sadness i already use to it so there is no fear in it...
N this is my onli christmas wish...

OUCH...pain all over

2008-12-18T16:30:00.000-08:00

hiaz....another day hav just past....i don noe wat will i do sia
yesterday was a tiring day sia...i go gym train for awhile..
den go lunch....den after rest n play bball the whole afternoon sia
not bad for mi sia...noe some new fren..i waaas shock sia...
the girls play damn power sia....
hiaz...mi so noob sia..lol...

don noe wat will happen in future......
just happy go lucky ba........
i wish i can noe her more.........
haha....

wat can i do.....i don noe i really don noe...

2008-12-11T21:37:00.000-08:00

today is a day.......a day i wish for...cos is her birthday..
how i wish i can spent the time with her during her birthday
i keep thinkin wat should i do when her birhtday come...

but ritz now all is nothing....i really glad she invite mi
to her party..but i didnt go....
i don wan to make even more mis understandin...
maybe i really not the one ba.....
just wan to lettin go...
hiaz...wat can i do i don noe i really don noe..

if up above sky there's some one can hear mi plz..
just hear this i just wish she can be happy even without mi
wish she can hav a peace n happy life..no sadness no trouble
no stress...
thanks for the time to hear mi..
cos i really love this girl......

everything is back to normal....i guess?

2008-11-29T02:47:00.000-08:00

will i hav time....if i wait...will i hav chance...if i wait...
will be happy...if i was with u....will i not be lonely..if u were there
will i hav my wish come true....if onli u could understand...
all i noe i so selfish....all the thinkin is about mi...not her..
if onli i can wake up...if onli i can ask her...

i guess everything back to normal.....i really don noe wat to say to her
when i saw her...i onli wish i can hug her.....ask her to be with mi
but guess this wont come true ba....hiaz...maybe she not the one...

i onli can wait...N wait....

2008-11-24T16:39:00.000-08:00

wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait.................N wait

wat is mi to u???!!!

2008-11-20T07:31:00.000-08:00

hiaz...this few days i really noe my temper really gone up..
i shout at my own fren...n even slap lor...hiaz..wat m i thinkin..
is it really she..dat make mi feel this way...
i really don noe how she feel about mi...i always keep wondering
does she like mi...if yes i will be the most happies guy but if she don like mi
i sitll at least noe a ans...
but ritz now i don even noe anything lor

she is tortureing mi lor...hiaz..i really hav on mood sia....

how m i goin to tell her..i really love her...

2008-11-17T06:55:00.000-08:00

i really miss her....i really cant bear one day not to C her...
all guys should understand my feeling...i don even noe do she like mi anot
i really puzzle of wat to do...
hiaz.....

i really very tired.. very.....but when ever i close my eyes i will C her
beautiful face...my eyes came out with tears.....i really she is mine...
hope one day she will noe how i feel for her..

if onli i can say...

2008-11-14T19:47:00.000-08:00

i really don noe y...i felt something kept away from mi to her...
hiaz...can i really be with her...i really don noe..
she don even share thing with mi...how m i suppose to her wat
she is thinkin...i really don even noe how she feel about mi...
i really hav alot of question to ask her...but how can i start..
hiaz...this really tourture mi sia...

i really don noe y my mood keep changin worst n worst..
i really wan to be myself..stop changing mi =.=
i wish she noe wat m i thinkin..
if onli i can ask her to be my girlfren

hiaz...but how can i start...

i really wish she is mine!!!!!

2008-11-12T08:08:00.001-08:00

i really very happy...very happy..
at the same time i felt scare also...
all this feelin is torturing mi like hell...
i always thinkin can i be with her...i really very scare i lost her
during the charlet i really felt something different from the past...
but i really don noe wat she is thinkin...i really wan to ask her..i just don
have the guts...maybe i too love her ba..scare of losing her...
i really wish time can stop ritz on dat day...where there is onli mi n her
no one else...i really likes her alot...hiaz...

i did had a great time at the charlet...thanks to jie wor...
but i really wish she is mine....
if fate really let mi hav the chance i wish i can say to her face to face
how much she is to mi i really cant afford to lose her...
i ritz now onli can say i love her very much...

maybe just mi is enough!!!!!

2008-10-20T19:02:00.000-07:00

i keep wondering myself...i still single m i good or bad...??!!
Y i ask so stupid question...i really don noe...i should be happy
cos i don hav stress like other people who are couple...
i agree they will happy..but will they be sweet as the day they met??

i argee everyone hav the ritz..to like or love who...n no one can stop
someone like or love u...but it does not mean u can accpect the feeling
n forget who u really love...

although i don hav the ritz to step in other people relationship
n also i don hav the ritz to speak cos i don hav any love relationship

ritz now..i really like this girl...i really don noe how to say to her
i really don noe wat is she thinkin... but i onli noe i really like her
for now i onli can do is to stand by her side...
i really hope one day i can be with her..i really wish
but maybe i just think too much

maybe just mi is enough...........

wat can i say...

2008-10-04T10:18:00.000-07:00

i reali don noe...but i just wish,she will be there when i need her
i noe wat i tryin to do..is just my own thought..but i reali wish
she noe wat m i thinkin...but now to mi..as long as i can C her
everyday i already happy...

sometime i reali wish...i can understand her better..
but will she noe..i will miss her everytime..
i will think of her..in my mind..but everytime i think...
the feelin will fate away further n further...

my heart will feel pain de wor..everytime i sms her..i felt like she
don wan to talk to mi lor...maybe i just a guy dat she don wan to
talk to...anyway this is all my feelin..i really cant blame her
cos in the first place she n i are just fren onli wat..she also not my who
same thing..i also not her wat...

maybe this is all fate ba..
wat can i say...

i wonder how close will i be with her???

2008-10-01T10:54:00.000-07:00

i reali don noe wat she is thinkin...she is so blur..
but still i reali like her...don noe Y..???i feel like i can be with her
but still maybe it waas just my guess...maybe i cant be with her ba..
i think she have not interest in mi lor =.=...

i wan to treat her nic...but she don wan to li wo lor...>.<
i wish she noe how i feel sia..
hiaz...so many thing i wan to say to her..i just wish i can spend more time
with her....
i not dat greedy la..just wan her to be with mi for my rest of my life..
although is impossible but i just wish lor...maybe i just the guy dat
cant win her heart..hiaz...

no matter wat i still like her this feeling will never change untill the
day i die..
no girl will change my heart...not any more..cos i really like her!!!

but ritz now...i wonder how close will i be with her???

maybe this is all fate...i really happy about it...

2008-09-20T13:47:00.000-07:00

i really don noe how i met her...how i noe her..
but i after knowing her i hav a feelin for her...
i really like her...i really wish i can be with her..

after spending some time with her..i did really hav the chance to go
out with her..just even for a movie..this is the most enjoyin in my life
i really just wan to hug her..cos i really don wan her to leave mi

after the day we meet...i try to sms her..but she didn't reply..
i tryin to lie myself dat she is busy with something...
i really miss her.. cos we don even meet after dat..
i felt like there a gap between us...
but maybe she don even hav any feelin on mi...

but maybe this all fate....N i really happy about it.. really happy
of knowing her...

i noe a fren of her...i think it was her good fren ba...
after awhile her good fren become my sister..although she is few month smaller
den mi..i really feel dat she is the best sis i ever had...
even i don hav a gf...as long as i had this sis..i happy in my life
i really don wan to talk about love any more...maybe i hav no ritz
to....

no matter wat...it my life after all...

this is the first time...

2008-09-15T23:20:00.000-07:00

i really hope she is the one...
i really have a good time spendin with her..
how i wish time will slow down when i was with her..maybe
becos not everytime can meet up with her ba...
i really hav alot of fun with her..n she really very funny n blur also

hiaz...how i wish she mine sia =.=
slowly ba..let fate choose for mi..
after all this is the first time....

hiaz...wat m i realli thinkin now...

2008-08-17T08:57:00.000-07:00

after for so so long...i reali very puzzel of myself..
wat i wan the most...wat i reali wish for...wat m i doin..
IS THIS WAAT I REALI WAN????

i reali don noe about myself...there a feelin inside mi...but i don noe wat is
it...many things had happen...wat done is done...wat overr is over..
but uptill now i really don feel dat i m i...i was like livin like another
person..someone i don even noe...

for now i don think dat much ba..nitz nitz

i havin a dream..N i don wish to wake up..

2008-07-14T05:31:00.000-07:00

it waas like a dream to mi...dat night..i really hav alot of fun..
N i glad i noe her..she very pretty..n nic..

this was the first time i in powerr house..
startin i n my god bro..n other 5 fren stand at a corner look at the people..
it is so different when i go MOS lor...POWER HOUSE ROCK MAN!!!!

haha..startin we R squeeznin through a space to dance...but soon the time has
come..party has start..people all dancin..happily..
here is the best part

there this two girl..came into our group..both of them r very pretty lor..
slowly..my god bro caught their attendtion..
n he dance with them..haha..i so jealous..

but this is also the first time i saw with my own eyes how good he is..
can u imagine one person dance wwith 2 girls
i so jealous

haha...

next time den i continue...

MONEY MONEY MONEY!!!!!

2008-07-10T16:33:00.000-07:00

hiaz...i got so many things need to buy sia
where to find money...no choice but to work work N work....
hmmm...alot of things i hav let it go..so ritz now i onli thinkin
study N money...nothing else..really nothing else...

ritz now i in ite..nothing much can do..N i really don like stayin too long in
ite..hope i can pass n just left the place..
so far my family n i still fine...

just hope i can earn more money HAHA!!!!

sorry so long never update...

2008-07-07T04:38:00.000-07:00

haha..as usual..i still learnin my dance..popping..doin my design of my shirt..
so so fast my holiday is finish...now startin a new term..
ite ar...is so so borin lor...
but luckily i met some good fren...

so far..if any girls..C my blog..don worry i still single n availble..(haha jkjk)
i just wan to listen to more..of love story..don ask mi y..
i cant tell anyone the reason...but i really wish more people can share with mi
the feelin when u come across with u love ones...

i don mind sharin my ears..to listen to anyone..no matter u a guy or a girl..
i noe is pain when u people talk about the past..but if u don think carefully
maybe if future the same thing happen again...

in love there r no ritz or wrong..N i cant say it cos i hav no exp in it..
but i can onli say is love is a feelin to the people around u..
plz don abuse it..

talk is cheap.... i noe..but wat can i do?my fate is still the same

2008-06-24T10:19:00.000-07:00

i really did not wan to giv up...but i got to let it go
i did'nt hav it in the begining...but i noe it is onli one side feelin
i did'nt blame her..it just my fault...

nvm...today..i hav a good news..
i got two new god sister
one is sandy.....one is peishan..haha both are pretty girls so if u wan to noe
more about them plz stay till my blog if not u will regert

hahahahahaahahahhaa

no mood...if let u choose will u be mi????

2008-06-18T09:10:00.000-07:00

how do wan ur fate to be??? i onli wish i can find the one...the only one
girl dat can be with mi..care mi..love mi..laugh with mi...
i not despos..!!!! just dat i feel lonely...

wat is wrong of likin a girl...or is it wrong of likin a girl dat she does'nt
like u at all...?? wat can u do if u were mi???
i can say i did my best...but i a human..too...i will cry..
i a human..i hav my anger...but does this mean dat u can hurt mi???

or maybe i just as stupid as i look...i can say this is my fate...
fate to be lonely...from the past wat i hav done..to mi all is one side feelin
but is true..i cant use a gun n point a girl to like mi..
force is not wat i wan..or wat i will do...

if anyone of u C my blog ask urself...will u choose to be mi??
share ur view to mi..tagg mi plz..
maybe u r the one da can help mi...

maybe this is my fate...but i wish i can change it...

2008-06-09T10:45:00.000-07:00

fate is a funny thing...if u wan something u will not get it... if u don wan
something den it will be yours!!!

this are all my birthday wish!!!

2008-06-08T03:20:00.000-07:00

so fast i goin to be 18 le!!!..hiaz..older by one year le.
currently i now in ite n still don noe wat my future yet but for now i just wan
to do something dat i like..

there R time dat is happy..there R time dat is sad..
in my life there r many wonderful people i met
N now i goin to list..this people..

1. from my pri sch..tian liting, boo wei sheng , melissa choo ,
kenneth moo ,angline ong ,tan sin yi,

2. from second sch..first is from my wu shu..jeffery lee(my best n handsome god
bro)wen di,lau han qiang ,wong jin cheng , derek sim ( wu shu too many le n i
don noe how to spell some of the name >.<)

3.N this r people i met during workin...sandy(carefour) sharon(carefour)
ser keng(starhub), suet mei(starhub),yuping(starhub),simei,beewa,romel

at first i plan to go out tml...but look likes i will be alone..
sad..

here r my birthday wish!!!!
1.first is to wish ser keng n suetmei to be lovely every single day
2.jeff will find a good gf
3.dat jin cheng can grow up more
4.derek will be more careful of wat he is doin
5.sandy found a good job
6.sharon leg will be heal

wat i believe now...

2008-06-03T03:16:00.000-07:00

i really don noe wat is like..to heard this sentence "the love is in the air"
on second thought i will giggy..den i laugh...
no matter wat this meanin is it will never happen to mi..i guess..
maybe it is time to think...wat m i doin...

i maybe selfish..but it is my thinkin..
thanks to her(can say my good fren le ba she a girl^_^)..i back mood again...
i was emo..all the while...but now i feel alot better now..
after talkin to her share with her...my mind is clear now...
i now on designing shirt so anyone wan to talk a look plz feel free to contact mi

anyway my birthday is comin is comin!!!!
haha...
hope to C her soon!!!!
so busy!!no time to blog le...

i believe in myself...
i will not giv up on myself..

I damn angry lor....

2008-05-22T09:17:00.000-07:00

hiaz..as usual i go to sch with a emo feelin...
still got wat thing bothering mi...
i really wan to thanks my class mate..as in ite de
thanks to them my feelin back abit le...

but still i was very angry lor...
first is the girl who i like..didn't have any interest in mi..
can't blame maybe i really fate to no one like ba..also cant force her
to like mi >.<

second i got bluff by my best bro..i noe him for 5 years..N this is how he treat
mi...first tell mi he forgot to bring towel ask mi go home take..N i did
den he say he is in sch..will be late to go gym..so meanin will still go de la
i was like a idiot waitin in the gym just to wait for him...den i call him many
times den he say he at the girl place...which is 5 station away from khadit
den he tell mi he is in train liao..ok..so i wait...
untill awhile..i ask him where he is liao..he say he is buyin water for mi..he say
he reachin le...
ok..i wait again..my feelin really very angry lor( i don wan to scold the F word)

third thing..on my time waitin for the best fren i ever have( really best on cant
buy de hor)
there r two couple..sitin around mi...i was tryin my break dance skill
n they came to disturb mi how?? i tell u in a short well
first couple talkin to each other den quarrel den in the end hugg together..den
kiss...hiaz..(Y is not mi..n the girl i like..)
den the second couple also same quarrel quarrel..
sian lor...Y onli i can C all the bad thing de >.<
in the end they also hugg together...hiaz...
makin mi more jealous lor..i still emo ok...?

so so so damn angry....hiaz..hopin anyone can change my life...

will u giv mi a chance????

2008-05-20T20:35:00.000-07:00

now dat i noe...u hav no interest in mi at all...
not a single feelin....i admit it is all one side feelin
hiaz...

wat can i do??? wat should i do..i so confuse...
my feelin now is really really lost....
someone plz help mi..anyone?

i can remember once..she say to mi waitin is not 100% dat she will fall on mi
but if her heart there is another guy in it..wat m i suppose to do???
there wasn't any space for mi...

now dat i noe...she wasn't look at mi..she doesn't even wan to go out with mi...
maybe is time to let it go...but i really don wish to..don wan too...
i don even dare to talk to her...don even dare to face her..\
hiaz..M i dat bad..?

i just not attractive like others ba...
even if i continue will she giv mi a chance????

do u believe in fate???

2008-05-20T05:20:00.000-07:00

i really like her alot....but maybe i noe her not enough..
maybe i really don noe wat she wan....
maybe like my god bro say i not her cup of tea...

i don wish to giv up...n i don wan to...

i really don noe Y...Y my fate always has to be in this way
maybe i should not be in this world...

if my fate say dat i cant be with her...
i wish can i can bear the pain to let her go..
but for now i say it is hard for mi....

i cry today!!!!!

2008-05-19T06:30:00.000-07:00

today is a day i really noe about myself....
after all i not dat good enough...M i dat bad...

afterall i still a useless guy...wat is fate to mi??
no one will even look on mi...wat for care about mi
just leave mi alone...don bother to talk to mi

do anyone care how i feel...or should i say no one will care how i feel
i just a loner...a guy dat no body will care about
i wish evrything can start all over again
i wish i can change my fate...somehow...

my tears fall today...i really damn damn upset lor..with myself
i so so damn useless...for some reason i think i should even come to this world
i feel so pain ritz..now...Someone plz kill mi...

i hate myslf
i hate myself
i hate myself
i hate myself

i can C she is unhappy....

2008-05-18T05:43:00.000-07:00

today i wake up as usual....
i eat my breadfirst...n lunch together...
den bath n get change den go out liao!!!!

i at first go out with my pal...towards to buy my textbook..but i cant find the stupid book...hiaz...
nvm after walkin around the shoppin mall..we go get a drink..den we plan to go to
city link..to C some dancer
too bad this is not our day..there no one there dancin
hiaz...

so nvm..let move on to the plan...N dat is go find my girl..i mean the girl i like
when i reach her workin place...i hav a strange feelin
i talk to the girl i like for awhile ba...den she is so busy doing her job..
but but..her face look so unhappy

i didn't ask y...cos i noe she wont say de.....
i try to make her smile....hiaz..i fail...
in the end i left but i got say good bye to her la...

den my pal lovin fren came...
wat do i mean..er..pal like the girl la
i feel like i a BIG bIg BIG LIGHT BLUB
hiaz..no choice..life is unfair...

den we walk around..i abit shy at first..but i everytime got sobon by my pal n his girl...y?
leave mi n the girl's sister...hiaz...
den my love one sms mi dat she is havin her break..i wan to rush to her lor..
hiaz,,i upset one thing lor...
i go out with my pal n his girl 'fren'...den she ask mi to enjoy...
hiaz.. she still don noe how i feel wat i m thinkin...
i like her lor..alot alot lor..Y cant she just understand dat..

so glad dat she is back ^^

2008-05-16T21:12:00.000-07:00

after for so so long...(onli three days onli)
never talk to her really kill mi big time u noe?? =.=
hiaz...when she got free time sia.. >.<

so so boring..n she is workin lor...
but i still love to go out with her sia... HAHA!!!!

don noe wat to write liao...

but still...

so glad she is back safely ^^

miss her miss her really miss her!!!!!!

2008-05-15T09:01:00.000-07:00

hiaz..at last..one day is gone ^^
she back tml!!!haha!!!!
but don noe when....hiaz...
i really miss her lor!!!never talk to her..don noe is she happy anot>.<
hiaz...

haha...nvm i don care..i so happy i don noe Y
maybe i crazy liao...

arg!!!!!

miss her miss her hiaz...I ReALLY MISS HER!!!!!!!!

i miss her...2 more days...hiaz

2008-05-14T04:29:00.000-07:00

everyone need time..to relax..no matter wat u doin..
many people sure hav some stress..in work or in study..
so a way to relax urself is to go on a holiday trip ^^

dat wat the girl who i like does...she leave singapore this mornin >.<
to gentin..(wish i can go with her sia)
i can remember she onli bring one small blue bag..very cute lor

yesterday i go out with her..n some old fren ba..
at first wan to go watch a movie..but no show to watch
den we went to kbox...but too XXXX liao
in the end we go plzy pool..

i at first say to them i master liao...but in the end i lose liao siao lor >.<
hiaz...
but nvm..at least i get the chance to get closer to her ^^
haha

everytime we met i really hate one thing dat is to leave n go home..
hiaz..now she is not in singapore i really miss her sia...
hiaz..2 more days...

i really fall in love with her...

2008-05-13T09:26:00.000-07:00

after yesterday..i really cant live without her
her smile is back to normal..
to mi she is a very very nice girl..
i don noe Y but i noe she the one...the only one

we hav alot of fun...haha..thank to my ex boss ^^
i really enjoy every single moment i spent with her
it is like a dream...
i think i need to get closer to her..

oh god..
i really fall in love on her

will u remember..mi??

2008-05-11T03:59:00.000-07:00

althought we have not noe each other very well
but i can say i cant forget the time we spent together
i really hope dat u can be with mi for the rest of my life...
to u we r just fren..but i onli hope dat we can get to something dat is more
closer den fren...

i really wish i can stand by ur side..caring n huggin u..
i really wish the day can come..

will u remember mi??

do i stand a chance???

2008-05-10T09:10:00.000-07:00

i not handsome...i nt dat rich..i not so good in anything...
do i stand a chance???
i really scare dat i goin to lose u...
i really scare ....really very scare

promise...do u believe promise is mean to break??

2008-05-07T06:54:00.000-07:00

IT is so easy to giv a promise...but it is too hard to keep it...
promise is easy to make..n it is easier to break...
do u agree??how many times did u break ur promise dat u make to others??
N if u cant keep ur promise den Y in the first place giv a promise??

i giv alot of promise...to the one i love..but i found out dat each i giv
is so hard to keep it..n in the end i break it..is this Y people hate mi..
i'm tryin very hard..really very hard..hoping dat i keep my promise..
i end up in a mess...hiaz...

this time i like this girl...luckily i did not promise alot of thing yet...
but i will do my best to keep it..
to earn her trust n respect..(just like my god bro(jeffery)]
i really lookin forward everyday to C her..but no choice i hav sch to attend..
n she hav to work..hiaz...
hopeing she can leave her job in carefour real soon...this is the worst job i ever
met...

i really wish i can be with her..but is still hav a feelin of i'm losing her
i really don noe wat to do...but i promise i will wait for her..
i will do my best no matter wat..
plz..plz..let mi noe if u need mi..i be there..for sure..
this time i wont break my promise..

how i feel now do she noe...??it doesn't matter as long she noe i be there for her!!!

2008-05-06T06:06:00.000-07:00

hmmm...the feeling inside mi..is growing n growin..
but the feeling about her is losing so is this mean dat i goin to
lose her???

i did hav a great time with her..n i wish i can hav it everytime
i noe i greedy..but in this world who do not wan to be with his/her
love ones!!!
if only i can get closer to her..if only i can gain her trust..
but i don wan "if" i wan it to happen
but will it happen??

i didn't make it but at least i try...
m i wrong..??
loving a person..is it wrong??
care for the person..is it wrong??
in the past i hear all kind of things..from every girl i met..or should is say
have a crush on....they will say.."can we be fren..""if u care for mi i will feel
bad" this r nothing but excuses...

every girl say man r the bullies...but wat about we guys think??
R every girl a bullies??wat we guys r doing..wat we r tryin..??
to earn the girl respect n trust..
wat if we fail...??

should we say" girls R the one who is bullies "??

but don forget there is love...everywhere around mi
But...BUT..
it is not happen on mi...

but i wish she noe dat no matter wat i be there for her...

i really hope she is happy

2008-05-04T23:37:00.000-07:00

yesterday was a boring day for mi at first...
i wake up in the mornin staring at my house wall..
nothing to do..
N it is such a hot day >.<

about 4pm..i really cant stand the bored at home so i wan to go out for a walk...
and somemore i hav a werid feeling inside mi towards her...i felt dat she is so so upset..but i don noe Y...

so i wan to ask her go out but i don think she hav the mood..instead i ask my best bro to go out..who noe my best bro ask mi together go find her..i say i love to..but scare dat she might not like it >.<..
in the end we reach her workin place..but we didn't C her..
so i go ask around..haha..my luck came back..when i lookin for her
she was just infront of mi sia..of cos i rush to her la ^^
but i can C her face was not so happy sia..she is like another person lor..
her face is as black as the dark cloud lor...
so i ask her wat happen..N she didn't wan to tell mi at all..(sad i so useless sia)
i really wan to noe la..but in the end she onli say workin stress lor...
in my mind at dat time i onli wan to make her happy.. but i do not noe how sia
after my bro buy his food(i mean his dog food)we went walkin to watch a movie..
but still she is not happy lor...

hiaz..i really don noe wat to do..i really wan to help her..but but..(i still so useless sia)
when we reach the cinema..it about 9 le..
n we haven decide wat to watch sia..in the end we watch IRON MAN..
but still she is not happy at dat time...>.<
when i ask her again wat happen she onli say nothing lor..i'm ok..
how can believe her words???she look so so depress sia..
lucky during the show her mood change abit...
but i found one cute thing haha..^^
she was coverin her both ear..she look scare..i don noe Y..
but she look cute lor..i was watchin her rather den the movie...(hope she don noe la)
i really like the movie IRON MAN is a nic show..i hope got IRON MAN 2 sia haha!!!!

ya..everyone noe dat havin a good time is always end so quicky..especially when i spent time with her >.<
nvm..we spent some time walkin to mrt station..don noe Y she so werid don let mi to walk with her to her busstop..she onli wan to C us in the station den she ready to go (maybe she scare dat i follow her home ^^)

haha..great time i guess..but still i really hope she is happy..
hope she can smile..every single day..
i hope i can get closer to her..
hiaz...

how can i get close to her??

2008-05-03T09:18:00.000-07:00

hiaz...how i wish i can be with her..
i also wish to noe how she feel about mi
do she like mi??
hiaz..
i just hopeless>.<
how can i get close to her..someone plz tell mi
if someone can...

Wat should i do???

2008-05-02T08:15:00.000-07:00

TOday is rush rush day!!!!

early in the mornin wake up although not for sch but NEED to Get my pay!!!
HAHA!!! i got My pay aat last!!! the stupid Carefour count mi wrong money want to eat my money sia.. one hundred plus u noe >.but luckily can manage to claim back

mornin go to carefour den go sch den go back to carefour den go back to sch sia
rush here rush there i almost broke lor...lucky i still got my pay ^^

today i go to my sch my sch dance cca...abit sad la but i still like it..

hiaz..i hav a feelin i goin to lose her...wat should i do >.<

so Boring..

2008-05-01T02:07:00.000-07:00

HiAz..same day as usual..although today is holiday..
at first i goin to meet someone(who is important to mi)
but in the end i did'nt meet the person >.<

haha.. is ok(i tell myself)
so i went to my god bro house to slack
chattin playin n dancin
SO boring..
but i think tml will be a rush day for mi
I goin to get My PAY!!!! HAHA!!!^^

HI!!! i back again!!!

2008-04-30T04:57:00.000-07:00

hi..people who noe or don noe mi
i hav a long time never use blog le...
but now i usin it back...I don noe Y maybe i too free liao ba
now i currently study in ite east.. this will be my second week liao ba
i still learn my dance as part of my hobby..(when i was free)
i don like to go out..but onli love to eat (-(00)-)
hmm..i still thinkin of something..very hard to say.
but nvm don bother about it..
currently i still single ^^ so any girl wan to be with mi i don mind
now i in ite... i noe some good fren..
AZA..N AHMA..N of cos there r more( don expect mi to name all do u?)
my classmate is fun..i guess?? AT LAST i get my EZlink pass
but the sad thing is still cant use..Sian..
last but not least..i wish my birthday wish will come truth..
although still far away ba >.<